Sonstiges
another senseless thought of mine

Do i have a reason to be this way, apparently not.

Does it make sense to react this way, probably not.

So why do i do it? - ???

I know, most of it is just in my head. I could ignore it easily, but it would find me sooner or later..

So why not face it now..

Well, who knows? Better yet, who cares..?

I see people talk about stuff, seemingly meaningless and senseless stuff. But still they laugh and enjoy them selfs.

I see it and ask myself why am i different? Why can´t i feel this way..?

I found a distraction, it made me appear normal. Well, at least not so different as i felt all this time. Unfortunately this distraction has reached its limit. Now i´m on my own again..

I notice people(mostly good people) talking to me. I fear, the response they´re getting isn´t who i really am.

But that is exactly what i mean. I`m so distant.

I don´t know any better. Maybe its my fault, maybe its society..

to blame just anyone or everyone can´t be the solution, although i wish it would be..

So perhaps i should start to take responsibility

Well, who knows? Better yet, who cares..?