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Fate And Confusion - Three Letters And A Thought

Fate and Confusion

or "three letters and a thought"

This was inspired by a true story and it happened to somebody who is really close to me...

It all began on that one warm spring night and it is almost three years ago. I met him for the first time and I immediatly knew that I would have strong feelings for him - of any kind. On the next day I got a letter from him in which he wrote about how much he already liked me. i liked him, too - as a friend.

Three weeks later I got another letter from him that was about how important I was for him. I didn't like him that much anymore. One year passed by and he was as nice, kind, respectful and sweet as he could have possibly been. And I was avoiding him. As soon as we came out of the dance club I pretended not to know him at all. Actually I used him. And he knew that, but he was still trying to get closer to me. Then I got the third letter - the very last one - that explained his true feelings. He wrote that he loved me. That he had loved me all the time - from the first moment on. And I... i hated him. I thought of him as the most disgusting person on earth. And I treated him exactly ike that! What then followed was fate. Evil fate.

He quit dancing, he quit writing me letters, he quit being a gentleman, he quit the contact to me. He got a grilfriend. She was pretty and it seemed like they were happy. I don't know if she actually is the reason that opened my eyes, but it was about this time that i noticed that i needed him. Not only needed him - that he was the one. The one missing piece in my life, my love. but it was too late...

One day I met him on the street and we talked about us and everything. I didn't notice the time going by, but we must have been walking around and talking for the whole day. It was already dark outside when he brought me home. Sometimes I'm laying in my bed, wishing something could bring back those happy hours of just being aroud each other. We were so honest and it felt like we would finally make it. it felt as if the both of us still wanted nothing but each other. but i forgot to tell him that one important thing. I forgot to tell him that I was sorry for treating him so bad, that I was sorry for not noticing that we belonged together. i forgot to explain my feelings to him. Or I just didn't dare it.

After that I drove around for a week. As soon as I woke up i left the house to find him and i didn't come back before that stars lightened up the night. However i didn't meet him again and then i left my homecountry to spend ten months far away from my home, my friends, from him. We didn't say good bye and i don't know why not...

I left him behind me - in the past, but he still remains in my thoughts. he ment the world to me and I believe that I lost my feelings on that day when I had to notice the hopelessness of my situation. I don't miss my parents that much, I don't miss my friends at all. I'm trying to appreciate the kindness of the people that are around me now, but I can't. And most of all I'm trying to have feelings for someone who is now my boyfriend - the very first one ever. I'd love to cry right now, but I can't. I want my feelings and emotions back! How? Another thing I need to know is why I said yes when my boyfriend asked me if I wanted to go out with him. Maybe I was afraid of making the same mistake again. But how could that be possible when that other guy is the one thing on my mind? Why did I ever met him at all?

Fate and Confusion

or "three letters and a thought"

This was inspired by a true story and it happened to somebody who is really close to me...

It all began on that one warm spring night and it is almost three years ago. I met him for the first time and I immediatly knew that I would have strong feelings for him - of any kind. On the next day I got a letter from him in which he wrote about how much he already liked me. i liked him, too - as a friend.

Three weeks later I got another letter from him that was about how important I was for him. I didn't like him that much anymore. One year passed by and he was as nice, kind, respectful and sweet as he could have possibly been. And I was avoiding him. As soon as we came out of the dance club I pretended not to know him at all. Actually I used him. And he knew that, but he was still trying to get closer to me. Then I got the third letter - the very last one - that explained his true feelings. He wrote that he loved me. That he had loved me all the time - from the first moment on. And I... i hated him. I thought of him as the most disgusting person on earth. And I treated him exactly ike that! What then followed was fate. Evil fate.

He quit dancing, he quit writing me letters, he quit being a gentleman, he quit the contact to me. He got a grilfriend. She was pretty and it seemed like they were happy. I don't know if she actually is the reason that opened my eyes, but it was about this time that i noticed that i needed him. Not only needed him - that he was the one. The one missing piece in my life, my love. but it was too late...

One day I met him on the street and we talked about us and everything. I didn't notice the time going by, but we must have been walking around and talking for the whole day. It was already dark outside when he brought me home. Sometimes I'm laying in my bed, wishing something could bring back those happy hours of just being aroud each other. We were so honest and it felt like we would finally make it. it felt as if the both of us still wanted nothing but each other. but i forgot to tell him that one important thing. I forgot to tell him that I was sorry for treating him so bad, that I was sorry for not noticing that we belonged together. i forgot to explain my feelings to him. Or I just didn't dare it.

After that I drove around for a week. As soon as I woke up i left the house to find him and i didn't come back before that stars lightened up the night. However i didn't meet him again and then i left my homecountry to spend ten months far away from my home, my friends, from him. We didn't say good bye and i don't know why not...

I left him behind me - in the past, but he still remains in my thoughts. he ment the world to me and I believe that I lost my feelings on that day when I had to notice the hopelessness of my situation. I don't miss my parents that much, I don't miss my friends at all. I'm trying to appreciate the kindness of the people that are around me now, but I can't. And most of all I'm trying to have feelings for someone who is now my boyfriend - the very first one ever. I'd love to cry right now, but I can't. I want my feelings and emotions back! How? Another thing I need to know is why I said yes when my boyfriend asked me if I wanted to go out with him. Maybe I was afraid of making the same mistake again. But how could that be possible when that other guy is the one thing on my mind? Why did I ever met him at all?